It is a rich, thickish light, heavy with late summer. Lavish, almost. The colour of candlelight against an untouched buttercup. He could weep.
Behind him are the chalky walls of the city in which he was born. It will not be too many years before the son of his father's employer will reduce the whole complex to rubble. And it will be his tutoring of this man's son that will, in turn, sweeten tempers enough to have the city rebuilt again.
The pain in his stomach has spread much as a deep burn begins its slow ruin. He feels it in his groin, the joints of his knees, the bolts of his thighs. How much longer now until it reaches the heart, the throat? He wonders what part of himself will yield first and whisper its submission to the whole.
He's ashamed to say that he's frightened to die. It has been such a privilege to be a small purposeful share of the Earth. To look out onto the atomic darkness and to thrill. To savour what it is to sense the spring's first warmth on naked skin or to lay himself out on summer-struck stone and absorb its energies after a long walk. To taste the goodness in a ripe strawberry. To feel the sorrow of desire in the first kiss with a lover.
And to belong among others in kind. The old olive trees that buckle against the generations of storm and heat and still service the birds and men with their fruits. The gambolling bears drunk on light in the first mornings of re-emergence. The dolphins. Ah, the dolphins. Slender, muscular incarnations of joy. He will miss them. He will miss all of them.
Aristotle feels the quickening of tears at the edges of his eyes. All he can hope is that he has done enough, given sufficient energies of his own to the vast, communal conversation on the why, the how, the what next? He hopes that others will correct his errors, make good on his intuitions, and draw knowledge of the world into something that might almost be virtue.
And what might come? He doesn't know. But of this he is certain: There is no soul but the body itself that in its wit and striving becomes an instrument of freedom. Not freedom from the Earth itself. Not freedom from others. But freedom in its oldest sense of a beloved one. For if the soul is anything, it is the gift of knowing the body and loving the world in return.
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[From "Alive: The Hidden Intelligence of the Living World," by Melanie Challenger]
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